Can't help but notice that I come here less and less when life is good.
Today, life is still fine. Things have leveled out. I stopped going to my therapist, which I know is stupid, but I feel so much better right now. I know, eventually, I will bottom out again. That's okay though. For now, I will cherish these moments of stability. I am working again, which is good for me. Points me toward focusing in another direction rather than dwelling on my illness. I like that a lot. Tonight, I will be working a 3p - 11p shift. This is the first time I will be on nights. I like that a lot, because I tend to come alive at night. I am very much a sundowner. Mornings and I don't get along real well.
I want to wrap these moments up in a box and surprise myself with it over and over again.
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I like coming here and seeing no new posts. It means you're feeling "good" whatever that means. :)
That was a really beautiful way to end your post:
"I want to wrap these moments up in a box and surprise myself with it over and over again."
As for your decision, I think it's important to occasionally do what we feel, even if it seems risky or "not safe." And you can always go back to your therapist. They won't turn you away! Not while you've got money in your pocket anyway.
Forgive my ignorance, but are you a nurse? I wanted to know what you job is. I often work nights (til 10pm) as a produce clerk. And yes, I too am a sundowner.
Peace out, and don't worry about not posting. Now we know why... :)
I am glad life is going so well for you. You deserve it.
I hate to see my therapist when I am feeling good. She always wants to bring up the crappy stuff. LOL
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