My brother in law has left to move back to Israel.

He lived here for a year and my husband was relying on him to stay longer if not forever. Poor kid couldn't handle things here and was really homesick. This is going to do major damage to my husband. He missed 13 years of his brothers life when my husband moved from New York to Florida. My BIL moved back to Israel then with my husband's father. So basically, my husband loses his brother to another country. Bad enough that his father and mother still live there but now his little brother is gone too.

I am feeling pretty neutral today so I hope that I am able to provide my husband with the loving support he usually gives me. He has been crying off and on over this past week since his brother made the decision to go back. They are very close. I don't want to say or do the wrong thing to upset my husband more, so I imagine hugs and quiet understanding will do the trick. He won't want to talk about it, that's for sure. That's how he deals with things. He just bottles them up, compartmentalize and files it away. I envy him. I wish that I was able to handle things as well as he does. Not saying he isn't hurting when he does this. He is, he just handles it so much differently than I would. For me, this would throw me into the deepest depression and I wouldn't get out of bed for a week. My husband is fluctuating somewhere between sad and angry. I know he wants to hit something hard and cause it a lot of pain...pain that he feels emotionally.

To make matters worse, we are going to see George Michael tonight. He hates his music and he is doing this for me...but these plans were made long before we knew that my BIL was leaving.

I hope I can help him pull through this the way he always helps me to pull through.

I hope I have the strength.