I've been having a lot of bad dreams lately, most of them having to do with my daughter. She's pregnant. Six months along. She's healthy and so is the baby. I keep having nightmares that she is going to die in childbirth or that the baby is going to die.

I know this is me projecting my own devastating loss upon losing my son back in 1995.

I just wish the daydreams/nightmares would stop. They are freaking me out and making me terribly anxious.

I am living on xanax again.