Day 6 of feeling really neutral. I am counting the days now because I am curious to see how long it takes me to fall into an episode since being on the increase in drugs. I can't believe I still feel so good. I am not flying off the handle and I am certainly not depressed right now. Neutral. It's amazing. I feel like I am supposed to feel, how I have dreamt of feeling. I have made short term and long term goals for myself that I feel I could really achieve. The short term has always been to get out of bed and drag myself to the shower. Now, that is no longer a short term goal because I am doing it on my own, without the goal being in place. Next on my list will be a part time job. I need to go back to work, not for the money, but I need to keep myself active and busy. Too much for full time, but part time should be doable right now. Baby steps. I am taking it slowly for a reason. When I push too hard, I fail and fail miserably. So far, I am doing great. I have really enjoyed the past 6 days. I am not waiting around for the other shoe to drop. I feel good. I am only going to live for today. That's the short term goal.