I have 25 full days of little depression. This despite losing two people in my life, one that I was very close to. The other, a mother who lost her son tragically and could not find it within her to keep her own heartbeat sustained. Two suicides in the course of a two week period.
I thought these would rock me to the core. Since the new increase in medication, I have been able to grieve normally. I cry, without becoming hysterical. I got angry, without becoming enraged. I slept poorly, without insomnia being to blame. It is incredible to me that at a time in my life that I feel so pulled together that everything decides to fall apart.
And, life goes on, unabashedly...never looking back.
6 comments:
well....
everything happens for a reason they say...
U got these new meds before the rest fell apart....
I am thankful for that ....hang in there CP ....cant say it'll get better....cause one never knows.....but hang tight the that hotband & your son / daughter.....
hugs....
CP: I am so terribly sorry for your losses yet so incredibly proud of you for being able to grieve with little depression. I know a horrific back-to-back loss like that could have rocked you to the core and (without sounding cliché) on the bright side, your new meds have helped you through it.
Please do not beat yourself up about the cup of coffee. Of course hindsight is 20/20 and there is nothing you can do about that except cause yourself pain and anguish. You said he was born to die. Do not hold yourself accountable for his actions. Instead embrace the time you did have with him. Relish the fact that you are going down the right track and are improving and working towards your goal of 50 years with your husband.
Klinde
Yes, i agree with the the others before me. I am so grateful for your new meds & that they are working,cuz I worry about you. And I want you to feel okay. And it seems that the meds are helping you get through a difficult time, thank God for that! Hang in there, Cher. You are really make progress. Big hugs to you.
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Hysterical crying is great for me, only when I'm alone of course. I invite to my newly privatized blog, onset of reality. I privatized it because I applied for a new job and didn't want them to google me and find all my indiscretions. Just let me know if you want to become a member. Thanks.
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