I feel really good today.
Actually, for the past two days. I feel neutral, not manic, not depressed. I am in good spirits and enjoying feeling this way. My day was productive. I made a goal to get out of bed (yes, that is a goal in my world) get dressed and go get my nails done. I did that. I blew off my appointment twice while I was feeling in despair. Now I feel a bit better.
I went to the new psychiatrist. To say I don't like her is an understatement but I am remembering that she is only there to tweak my meds. I don't have to like her. It's your psychologist that you need to like. I don't have one of those yet, but I will again very soon.
It's been a good day.
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I am glad you are having a good day. I yearn for those. Too say I am the throes of a horrific panic attack is a huge understatement. There is no reason I should be having this as there was no trigger... Just woke up with a pounding heart and a feeling of unease. I just want to curl up with my husband holding me so I can cry or calm down or something... Anything really besides this shit.
And you know personally it is some shit.
Just needed to vent.
Klinde - You can come here and vent anytime you are feeling like that. I know your blog is a bit more lighthearted, so if you ever want to write anything at all...you use my comments. I will always be here to read them and commiserate and empathize with you. I know how rough it can go. If you need to curl up with your husband...do it. It's my only source of therapy.
Matthew - I didn't say it was. I was sighing over the way you wrote it. You always had a beautiful gift for the written word. It wasn't a wistful sigh, I assure you.
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