Merry Fucking Christmas.
I don't feel very spirited, but at least, I am away from my mother. Things were very stressful for me with her around. I don't think there is enough Lamictal in the world to help alleviate that. I think I truly need to consider removing the toxicity of that woman from my life.
In the interim, I have been very emotional as of late. Not manic emotional, nor depressed emotional. I have just been crying at the drop of a hat. This is very annoying to me. I cried at a poem that a flight attendant read about how to buckle your safety belt.
I think it ended:
And as the Santa pulled out of sight,
he said Merry Christmas...and have a good flight.
For some reason, this made me bawl my eyes out.
Or, maybe it was just decompression from finally getting away from my mother.
I think I will go with that excuse and cut myself a break.
Feliz Navidad.
4 comments:
Hi CP, I've been reading your other blog for a long time now and I can tell you that I enjoy reading it a lot. I identify with you in many ways, I can relate. The things you talk about, how you feel, your moods, those things resonate with me, but I also know I'm not as extreme in my mood swings as you've described yours, but I definitiley have them. I just want to thank you. I thank you because you help me keep going every day and you inspired me to get help. I look forward to reading your blogs everyday. Keep going, I hope things can get better for you. Maybe for me too.
Oh my gosh, do I ever hear you about the toxic person! Add the holiday season to that & it like triples the effect. It sounds like there's so many emotions going on, they're likely to come out in a number of ways.
Okay, so I think your other blog is more up to date, so I'm gonna go there & make sure you survived your mom!
I like your second reason!
anon - thanks for that.
jane - you are the best, you know that?
anon 2 - yeah, me too.
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